Peter, Your going through a really difficult time and we do really care. I suggest you give us regular updates, so we know how your doing and how more specifically to pray. I believe JoeJerk tempts you or me to be embarrassed by my own weaknesses, that everyone else has their act together more than I do, that I'm a burden to others. That is all a lie from Hell! We care. Keep us informed. Jesus loves you so much and He loves to see us pick up your load and help you to carry it! Where two or three are gathered in my name, there I am in the midst of them! Praise God for MOG that brings us all together!
thanks terry. Going through a very difficult time at the moment. Sometimes I feel I am surrounded by vipers. Will keep you informed. Please keep up the prayers. Can't wait to go home.
Peter, because you are discerning the priesthood, you will be viciously attacked..... we will pray for your protection, the entire forum......St John Vianney, please send angels of protection for a future priest!
Praying Sanctus. You are much on my mind and in my prayers. Keep offering Jesus this suffering--Hard as this is it is supernatural gold. And this evil oppression will be defeated by Our Lady. Keep calling on her help. And so will I.
I feel I am doomed. I feel God wanted me to commit to priesthood earlier and that he is punishing me now because I acted on self will. I feel very lost at the momemt and worried sick.
Perhaps God is working in mysterious ways to get me to abandon myself to His will. To live in the Divine Will. Saying the Don Dolindo prayer and it seems to be helping- Jesus, I surrender myself to you, take care of everything.
Don't be. You say you feel God wanted you to commit to the priesthood. Perhaps you misunderstood? I once felt called to be a missionary, but it didn't happen. I came to a point (years ago) of asking forgiveness if I somehow failed (or did I misunderstand??), and accepted that the matter was then resolved -- which it apparently was resolved, as I've only just now recalled this. Praying for you again. Stay focused on the Light of Christ's Sacred Heart. Feel its warmth. Bask in its glow.
Peter this a diabolic attack you are enduring. Your feelings can be tricked and manipulated. This is NOT how God works. It is not how how He reveals Himself to us. Think of thd prodigal son. Think of Jesus's words to Saint Faustina practically begging for souls to trust His Mercy and TO NOT BE AFRAID. From all the reading and listening I have been doing--spiritial talks and books--it sounds to me(although I certainly am no expert) like you are under a severe oppression that a priest needs to deal with. I am going to start praying earnestly for God to send you a priest. I am also begging Our Lady to "show up" in your situation. When she shows up its all over for evil minions. Perhaps others on the forum would join me in this intention. Please hold on. When these feelings hit hard make acts of faith hope and love even if you have to do it through gritted teeth. Pray the Rosary as much as you are able. Hold on.
Going home! Great! Being at home now may give you some peace. Always ask dear St. Michael to watch over your heart,mind and soul!
Beth, From where did you pull that quote of Sanctus mentioning a witch doctor? Safe in the Refuge of the Immaculate Heart!
Since AED referred to you as Peter I am assuming that is your first name. Your namesake while the first to proclaim Jesus as the Christ also denied Him during Christ’s Trial. Take comfort from your namesake and plead for his assistance. I am sure Peter will urge you to run and fall at His Mothers feet and proclaim your unworthiness. And Mary will enfold your in her mantle and like Peter you too may become a rock that others lean on for support. I am going to adoration and will bring you with me and ask God to smile upon you and to fortify you against these attacks.
Sanctus himself posted the reference...not me. It’s still up.... Here it is: “There was severe trauma caused by a witchdoctor I visited and new age practices before a conversion back in 2021 but thankfully the healing seems to be happening thank God. Due to leave hospital next week and doing much better.” and yes, it’s concerning.....
Also sunshine and sunny spaces, if possible. With a screen blocker, if you're able to take in outdoor sunlight.
