On Sunday morning at about 2am I was awoken by my dog who was staring very intently at me and whining. This was very,very unusual. He is ten years old now and very settled and well trained. When he was much younger he might have done such a thing signalling he wanted to go out to the toilet, but he is very well walked and it is so many years since he did this. Anyway Dragged myself out of bed to take him outside. As I did so I was aware of a very,very dark atmosphere in the room. Many many dark thoughts such as, 'Kill yourself you are useless'. 'There is no God it is a nonsense!' 'Why do you bother?' ..and on and on and on.. Again this is very, very unusual. I am very upbeat and happy. I sensed at once the presence of Demonic. I took the dog out and walked round the block. He did not want to go to the toilet. I knew at once then that the reason why he woke me up was to warn me about the presence in my bedroom. I got up but kept awake 3am, 4am , 5am ...6am then I got up to go to Mass. I was so totally exhausted I seriously considered going to Sunday Morning Mass. But I just love it so much and had been looking forward to it so much I went. Thank God. When I got home I was so tired I fell back in bad and slept for three hours; out like a light. Last nights I sued loads and loads of blessed salt and holy water and slept like a baby. The devil really exists and is very,very powerful at the moment.
Well back to work tonight and raring to go. Yesterday, a most beautiful summer afternoon I spent up Divis Mountain. At one point a cow chased the dog which was entertaining. I usually expect it the other way aorund, but he is a city dog and not used to cattle. At one point he sank up to his neck in bog which was a good warning to me to change my path, bless him. Bogs on Irish Mountains are to be taken seriously. I sat listening to music feeling at peace with the world. A lot of the prayer requests on the forum make me thing a lot about the age old question which people have been asking from the Dawn of Time, 'Why do bad things happen to good people?' Most times we can't even guess, we just have to trust, love and hope. Had a strange sad dream last night about a group of four or five Cardinals in the Vatican. I dreamt they were up to their necks in money Shennanigans and then in my dream I went to Sicily were these guys were doing deals with the Mafia to get themselves out of all kind of money holes they had dug for themselves including having some poor people murdered. All these Cardinals seemed to think about all day and all night long is money, money money. At the end of the dream a nice thing happened. I walked into a large office were an Italian gentleman was sitting. He was very,very holy, one of God's saints. He had the most beautiful eyes. We spoke for a while about the bad Cardinals and he told me not to worry he was trying to fix it. I saw his wife also. Perhaps he is an investigating Judge? Thanks God I have been blessing my bedroom with Holy Water and Blessed salt so the devil has been leaving me at peace at night. I must give the whole place a good old blessing this morning.
https://www.catholicexorcism.org/post/exorcist-diary-204-baphomet-threatens-exorcist Exorcist Diary #204: Baphomet Threatens Exorcist ["The Temptation of Saint Anthony," Lucas van Leyden, c 1530] Baphomet, a high ranking demon, is the head possessor in a particularly nasty case. The afflicted young woman is regularly assaulted and manipulated by demons. The exorcism sessions are intense and full of swearing, yelling, growling, lewd gestures, and vomiting. At the end of the most recent session, the young woman came back to herself after being in an active demonic state for almost an hour. The Exorcist asked, as he typically does at the end of every session, "How are you? What happened during the session?" She said to the Exorcist, "Baphomet is angry with you. He said that he is going to get you tonight at midnight." This is not the first time the demons have threatened one of us. Sometimes they will tell the Exorcist when they will attack and at other times they leave it unknown. But our experience is that when they say they will attack the priest, they will indeed do so. It is not a bluff. However, the Evil One is not allowed to do any more than God allows and He always provides the graces to overcome any demonic assaults. "Forewarned is forearmed." A few hours before midnight, another priest exorcist kindly prayed some deliverance prayers over the priest. This had the effect of somewhat blunting the coming attack. He then commended himself to the protection of the Blessed Virgin, sprinkled holy water around the room, and went to bed. Around midnight, he was awakened by an intense agitation and temptations. These were followed by feelings of utter darkness. Recognizing the source of these strong mental attacks, the Exorcist then said three times out loud: "I offer these assaults for the liberation of the afflicted person." Instantly, the assaults lessened in intensity. Not only is this offering helpful for the afflicted person, it also impresses upon the demons, once again, that all of their efforts are self-defeating. Everything they do ultimately redounds to the glory of God and furthers God’s Kingdom. The attacks did not dissipate completely until a couple of hours had passed. Then, the priest went back to bed and slept soundly, having once again experienced the surpassing power of Christ and his defeat of Satan. Giving into fear of Satan and his minions only empowers the demons. Faith is more than simply acknowledging that God exists. It implies trusting in God and in the victory of Jesus Christ. We surrender ourselves completely into God's hands. No priest will long survive the sometimes intense spiritual combat of an exorcist's calling without such a personal surrender.
AED, How sad; each of us will fall short and sin until the Lord calls us home. I fear the day that I am not grieved by my sin, knowing Jesus is with me in the boat! Change my heart, O God, make it ever true. Change my heart, O God, may I be like You! You are the potter; I am the clay. Mold me, remake me; this is what I pray!
