Back several years ago, before God had spoke to me, I had ended up in the situation like that of the son. You never know when something will come for you be it evil or the devil himself. I'll tell you the end before I begin rambling. God saved me. Again. But anyway, on with the story. Every night I figured I had a 50/50 chance of living. I was terrified of being in the house by myself. Up to that point I had put the barrel of an AK-47 to my head and put pressure onto the trigger and watched it slip. AK's have a hard/coarse trigger pull. Not something controlled. That the hammer didn't fall and strike the pin is a miracle in of itself. Was not happy at that moment in my life but I didn't feel suicidal. As soon as I realized what I was doing I put the rifle aside. I couldn't believe I just did that. Never gonna do that again. Ever. Next night I had the AK to my chest. The night after I was driving down the highway on my way home and I had the strongest instant desire to yank the steering wheel and drive my truck straight into a concrete pylon right as I got up on it at highway speed. This kept happening night after night. As I said, I was giving myself a 50/50 chance at living each day. What made it so scary was that I did not feel like I had control of myself when this happened. Truly frightening because eventually my luck would run out. Got to where I was afraid to go home. At the time several women were making their play for me so that was my out for not going home. I slept on couches a lot and I'd go home at sunrise to take a shower and then to work. Then came that last night. No couch to crash on that night. I was stuck going home. Except this night I somehow "knew" it was my last. Turned on every light in the house, locked the bedroom door and barricaded it (not joking), put the AK in the bed with me (yeah, not smart), crawled in bed and was just shy of pulling the covers over my head. I can type casually about it now but I was "very" scared. There I stayed until 3:00AM. If Satan had stepped through my bedroom door I would not have been surprised. I would have died of fright but not been surprised. At that moment, 3 am, the witching hour, my cellphone rang. On the other end of the phone was one of the women whom I had been talking to. I could hear the desperation and the fear in her voice. She told me she woke up praying for me. She was shaken about it. I was also. But the certainty that I was going to die went away at that moment and I haven't felt it since. She was married btw. My wife had left me and all of the sudden women were coming out of the woodwork. I know God works in mysterious ways but I don't understand. Why her? I have wondered this often. So for the Marine from a former Marine, Semper Fi. After watching the video I couldn't let you go without a kinship. May God have mercy upon you and comfort you. May your sins be forgiven and God's love wash over you. I cannot know your ordeal but I know that God even has mercy on the foolish of us all.
I hear the suicide rates after the Lock Downs are incredible. But no one talks about them very much, the same way no one talks about the excess deaths or the plumetting birth rates. But they are there anyway, https://www.mind.org.uk/news-campai...igures-showing-increase-in-deaths-by-suicide/ What an extraordinary story! Wonderful that you got through it. SOmeone was watching over you. During the worst of the lockdown I tuned into a utube video from a young Jewish man form Israel who had played the role of St Peter in the, 'Chosen' series. He had been on a roll, world famous and seemed destined for a really great acting career. But the lockdown closed everything. No social life at all, no chance for great new roles. Just stuck in his appartment. From everything to nothing. As I watched and he was being interviewed he began to cry and cry hard. It reminded me of Joseph when he was in charge of Egypt under the Pharoah. Pharoah had a dream of seven fat years and seven thin years when there would be a great famine. So Joseph set aside food in the seven fat years so that when the bad times came folks would be set. This reminds me of life itself. During the fat years we must set aside prayer time to prepare us for the bad times. For the bad times will always happen along some time or other. The way we prepare for the lean times is to set aside prayer time and go to the Sacraments regularly.
I was talking to a man in his sixties last week whose younger brother is truly terrified of dying. Even though he is only in his 50's and in very good health. I never expected during the war here to live to be much older than around 20 and nearly died on quite a few occasions. At first of course when it draws close there is a certain fear which is only human and natural and to be expected. But I did find as it drew closer a great sense of peace, joy and acceptance. It became not a source of fear but of hope. If I could recommend one great remedy for fear of death to anyone it would be Devotion to Our Blessed Lady and especially to say the Rosary. I have no fear of death at all and I don't suppose I ever have. But neither on the other hand have I any wish at all to hurry it along. Life is a very,very, great gift indeed and I don't think there is morning that dawns that I do not give thanks for it. If God wants us to stay alive and keep on our Mortal Pilgrimage He has a reason for it. If He wants to bring us home , He has a reason for this too. Either way life is a gift. But death is a great,great gift too. Who in their right mind, really would ever want to live forever in this fallen world? We're here for a reason..and we'll leave it for a reason too.
Terces story above is close to my own. Thank you for sharing Terces! Demonic presence, evil impulses to harm myself ect. Also since my husband had left, Satan had sent numerous men to "save me" and give me a new life and happiness. DON'T fall for it! That is exactly how Satan works. Of course the evil impulses could never bother us if our will was strong by fasting and obedience, but when we are not in a state of grace and Satan knows how weak we are he tries his best. Such a huge problem today just look at all the evil in the news by just normal people doing extremely evil things on impulse! Stay in a state of Grace with the Sacraments and if the Holy Spirit can stay in your body the demons cannot get it. Mortal sin causes the Holy Spirit to have to flee and then we are wide open! Also God can use sinful people in our lives also like the woman who prayed for you. That still makes it an adulterous relationship that demon sent you but God but of course is stronger and smarter than demons and prompted her to pray. Hopefully it also helped her back into grace as well as yourself!
Thought this video though long is gripping all the way through. It focuses more on God than the enemy but so worth while in all our temptations.
That was a truly wonderful video, Julia , I am going to watch is more than one. The Father mentioned Fr Calloway's book on the Consecration to St Joseph. I will have to buy this; it sounds wonderful. The Father was also humble enough to mention being afraid of the Devil . I think being afraid is the most natural thing in the world. Courage is , not not being afraid. Courage is being afraid but still acting. There was only one time in my life, looking back on it I was so afraid at the presence of the devil that I was totally frozen with fear. He can be quite ferocious and come down with very,very great power.
Thank you Julia. This is a long video, but one of the most powerful interviews I have ever seen. It hit home for me because my son is in the film industry and he has been suffering. He needs to see this interview but I know he is not ready to accept it. Satan pretty much owns Hollywood at this point, it was truly horrifying to hear that contracts are signed in blood. God have mercy.
Thanks again for posting this Julia, it is truly wonderful I really am going to watch this again and again. Some key takes. The priest himself. He was a Banker on Wall Street, very,very successful yet had a radical conversion which led him to become a Contemplative Hermit. How extraordinary! Hew as lad by God to leave being a Hermit to become Apostolic and an Exorcist and a very,very good one indeed. This is due to the fact that he is both very,very holy and very,very humble. I note he does two hours in the Blessed Sacrament every morning! Wow! I was very very struck by his remarks on Satanists. A for instance around Halloween, a Great Satanic Feast in New York they pick up homeless and murder them offering them up as Human Sacrifices to Satan. This ties in to what I have read from other Exorcists elsewhere that there are hard core Satanists , who, because they take up in highly illegal activities like murder, rape and child abuse do not advertise themselves. I had read this before but it still boggles the mind to hear it once again. There is one thing I have noticed in Catholic Churches , especially at Mass, from time to time you witness Satanists or those Possessed showing up. Keep your eyes open and you will see this yourself. The Father is so human and down to Earth, not head up in the sky. Like the guy next door. I really love this about him. I could listen to him all day. What stories he tells !!
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Agree. Father was amazing, his stories were incredible. It is difficult for many to accept that this level of evil is out there, truly frightening. The thousands of missing children reveal the truth.
