There’s something I need to tell you…

There’s something I’ve been hiding from you and myself for a long time (and I have been learning more and more that this hiding from it is responsible for a lot of my spiritual shortcomings); I’m Level-1 Autistic (formerly known as Aspergers). When I reverted to the Faith, I tried to downplay and ignore it, mostly because the Autistic Community is heavily gripped by, and thus associated with Leftism. (Despite the fact that Leftism is awful for Autistic people, and I’m not talking abortion and eugenics, I’m talking Marxist Materialism; socialization is really communicating bodily what’s in your spirit, your intellect & will and thus when one denies the spiritual, the social becomes spiritualized. But I’ll spare everyone a discourse on that.) I downplayed many years, telling myself that it’s no big deal, that I’m just weird and that I have more important things to worry about. Yet I kept running into things that I couldn’t understand and didn’t realize it was because I was Autistic that I was seeing things this way. For example I’d get really upset whenever someone would leave the Church, there are several Autistic reasons for this is, but the one I could best explain and you could best understand is this; when a person left the Church, it would often be for a reason I couldn’t understand, it just didn’t make sense to me. Instead of getting arrogant and thinking that said person was stupid, I would instead get scared and go to the other extreme and think, “if that person can leave the Church over something like that, what’s to stop me from leaving the Church over something stupid!?”

It was only when Covid came around and certain topics and rhetoric was being discussed, that I finally to look at myself and realized and accepted that this is indeed who I am, this is an important part of myself ; it enables me to practice certain virtues easier, makes me more vulnerable to certain vices, gives me certain crosses and difficulties and opens up different routes in the world; it plays an important role in my life and Salvation and I couldn’t do the things I should, because I was downplaying and ignoring it the whole time.

So the last two years I’ve been looking at this, accepting and understanding it, I made a prayer group and website linked below, to help fellow-Autistic people save their souls. I’m also looking for ways to Evangelize Autistic people outside the Church; but of course, my primary focus right now, is moving to Chile, getting married and having a family. Speaking which, some of my recent prayer requests were actually Autism-related, the woman whom I think might be my future wife is also Level-1 Autistic like me and that was actually how we got to know each other and found a lot of common interests and the like, I hope and pray that if she’s not one, than I marry someone like her. Also the guy Charles whom I had a run-in with on that secular forum site, he’s Autistic and the forum site is dedicated to Autistic people; in fact, I’m not sure if this happened before or after I posted that prayer request, but later on I found that he posted something along the lines of this: “I also came across a guy like [RosaryWielder, by “like,” he means a Trad] who told my friends and other people at my school that ‘he’s Autistic so he can’t really care!” so yeah, not nice.

So this is who I am, hope this wasn’t too much of an info dumb or the like, it came out much longer both lengthwise and time-wise than I thought. I just felt I needed to tell you about this, well I felt I needed to tell you about this quite a while ago but couldn’t bring myself to do so until now. If you’d like a definition or description of Level-1 Autism, (not Level-2 or 3 Autism, Level-3 Autism is quite a different thing, in more ways than you’d realize) I think the best way I could sum it up is, as a condition characterized by an expanded contemplating intellect, a strong, for a lack of a better term “rigid” will, and a rather sensitive body with sensitive appetites.

Here’s my site, I highly recommend you check it out and share it:
https://www.claritasprayergroup.com/

 

Rosary Wielder,

God Bless your heart for sharing this with us. You brought me to tears by this humble, pure, & faithful act. You increased my faith and just made me feel so so blessed to be part of this forum.

 

What a lovely and unique site you have made RW! And in this forum, I don't think you need be worried about telling the truth of who you really are. We are all welcoming here and we ALL have things we are carrying around with us. None are perfect. Thanks for telling your story and linking to the beautiful site you have made for autistic Catholics!

 

Lovely site.
My priest spoke today about how God made each one of us different on purpose.

 

Thank you everyone.

 

My nephew, Deglan has Aspergers. I would guess he is around the same age as yourself. He qualified as a Chef and recently changed course and is now a Qualified Accountant. I think he taught me that Aspergers does not need to define people.

To be honest growing up I never could tell any difference between himself and any other child.

I admire the way you shoot for the stars, you remind me of Deglan.

 

Since the forum is a wonderful place with lots of caring folk, RW, I think you chose a good place to share something that personal.

Safe in the Immaculate Heart of Mary!

 

RW may God richly bless you.

 

Thank you for sharing your struggles and journey with us Rosary Wielder. You couldn't have chosen a safer place to do it then here at Our Mother's forum. We are all her children, each one of us, with all our flaws. Know that we support you and pray for you. May God Bless you RW.

 

God bless you RW, your website is beautiful in more ways than one. I am happy to hear that you have accepted your autism, and decided to share this with your MOG family. Embrace what makes you unique, God knew what He was doing. My grandson is autistic and he is incredibly sensitive to other's needs, he has been a great blessing for our family.

 

We all have issues that we are afraid to reveal. Thank you for having the courage to allow us to get to know you better! I will of course keep you in my prayers!

 

I too Jo. My granddaughter is autistic and she is a great blessing. I really appreciate RW speaking if this.

 

May God bless you. You are in my prayers.

 

Beautiful website RW!

 

Ditto!

 

Out of curiosity, how would he line-up with my description here?:

 

I guessed I should have asked this before, are they Catholic?

 

RW,
I also have a granddaughter with Asberges. She is 11 years old now and getting along fine. I notice she has a great honesty and doesn't have a filter. She will say it as it is.
We love her very much.

 

I didn't even know that there were levels of Aspergers!

 

My daughter was diagnosed this summer as level 1. I am so delighted you brought this up, and that God in his mercy showed it to me.
I just want my children to be saints but the world works relentlessly to corrupt them.

Thank you for your website. I've just sent the link to my daughter - she's just turned 16.
Please keep her in your prayers